As I begin this blog, I am not sure where it will lead, how often I will post, or what i will post. I don't know exactly even where to begin. I just know that I feel the need to do this now.
I just came back from an amazing retreat, where I got to bet fellow IF couples who are going through all my struggles. They are going through the same emotions day in and day. It was such a blessing. Thank you to all the priest and the organizer. It was probably the best weekend I have had in a while. This weekend also made my IF real for me. For a long time, I did not want to accept that I was truly IF, but just having a hard time. I was trying just to say it is not God's time yet. I never focused on it. I tried not to think about it, just tried to continue on. But at the same time, I was focusing on it. I did not work for 9 months, hoping to get pregnant. I question all the time if I should schedule something that far out, in case I get pregnant. One thing I walked away with this weekend is to live! My blog title comes from that that love may abound more and more, that I might grow in love.
I have so much more to say, but this is a start at least.
Yay! So glad the retreat was so helpful to you and I'm looking forward to following your journey and getting to know you better here!
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:) Welcome to blogging! I think I'm going to start again soon--I have a new one in the works. I like what you said about focusing on IF even though you didn't realize it... I've definitely struggled with that, and constantly think about what if I get pregnant when I'm planning things, too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so jealous you got to go on Rebecca's retreat!! =) only half-kidding: I'm so glad you got to go. And I'm always happy to find a new blogger! Mine is www.eccefiat11.blogspot.com (still figuring out how to link that to Google, etc.) Many prayers for you! IF is really, really hard! I try every day to live in the present, thanking God for my husband, our marriage, my job, etc. Some days I do better than others. Anyway, I look forward to reading what you write here!
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