Decisions

DH and I decided to book a cruise in October for our 5th wedding anniversary. Rebecca was actually the one who helped me to decide.  We know it is a long time away and we know we can't go if I am 24 weeks or more, but we cannot just wait around.  The way I figure it is if I get pregnant in the next couple of months then we cancel and we get to stay home and prepare for a baby!  Yea!  Not bad at all. If I am pregnant but not that far along and it is safe for me it can be a celebration to new life and I won't spend as much on wine.  If I am not pregnant we celebrate 5 years together and enjoy ourselves.  Already a win win situation.   It was a big decision way in the future that in the past I could never have done.  But Rebecca told me once that we can't put our lives on hold.  Yes I might have to cancel a vacation I am looking forward to but we will be welcoming a new life into our family and to be me that is okay.  

That leads me to telling about how I have been doing since surgery.  I recovered In about three to four weeks.   I had to go to work part time for a week but then I was fine. I only started wearing real jeans a couple of weeks ago.  Thank you all for your prayers during that time.  I definitely felt them.  

We had our follow up in December that I left that appointment feeling a bit discouraged.  One thing she found was  a cyst on my ovaries that she thought could be a LUF.  I was terrified. But she said let's do more tests and blood work before we come to any conclusions.  So I had my marching orders to do p+3,5,7,9, and 11.  Also get a U/S done at p+3.   So I was supposed to do that cycle.  Life happened and I couldn't get it done.  So I am currently doing those now.  DH and I are having timing issues either I am having a sore day or he is or others things.  Hopefully we will be able to TTC. this next cycle. 

Speaking of cycles since surgery.  They have been 28 days. I am super excited about this because they have never been this short.  I am not on metephmin right now so I am think the surgery at leat got my cycles under control.  But the tebb is still there and I am still cramping badly.  Now I also am getting ovulatin pain.   At least I am noticing it some.  I am hoping the cramping goes away next cycle.  If not I am not sure what can be done.   I am doing cycles reviews now so I am getting answers. On a random note a switched to using natrucare products and I am loving them. They are more expense but I think it is worth it.  

I am also going to the girls weekend that Donna is planning from What if God Says No.  I am super excited to meet more people from my computer and see friends.  Woohoo!  

One last though before I go. Today is my birthday and I will be the same age as Jesus when he saved us on the cross. That gives me hope.  

I hope to be better about posting.