Struggling.

As my title suggests I am struggling right now.  After finally being successful getting DH tested, the results came and they were not what we expected.  I will put it this way, I was at work and had to run to the bathroom to cry, a coworker found me and told me I should go home. I stayed for maybe 20 minutes and basically ran out of there because I was sick to my stomach.  He has been doing EVERYTHNG right for the past 6 months and to get these results just rocked me to the core.   We meet at the Cheesecake Factory for dinner and did so me retail therapy shopping.  I calmed down a little.  But still shaken the next day.  On top of that, AF was three days late. I had the peak phase of 15 days!  I guess the progesterone is working!  Thankfully it did not mess up the timing of everything else. 

This cycle I am finally getting the ultrasound servers done.  No place near me would do it, so every afternoon I will be taking off early and driving to the closet place that I know will do it.  It will be a long two weeks, thanking my DH will come a couple of times.   We are making a weekend of it and going to some wineries we haven't been to in a while. Right after the series is done, I have my follow up appointment, so I am looking forward to getting answers. 

There is a lot going on right now in my life in general.  I am seeing a counselor which I am glad to be doing, but I don't know if it is helping much.  I will give it a few more months. I am struggling at work and hope to be able to quit soon.   In addition DH has a bunch of stuff.  For those who follow the FB group please keep praying. 

On the plus side my patio is finally started!  I hope to host something so so I can enjoy it!

Sorry for not posting in a while.  I cannt make any promised of when I will post again, but know dear readers you are all in my prayers. I ask for prayers as well.